All I've Built

I'm dead awake
There are thoughts that cross my mind
I just can't take
And I've taught myself to just push them away

I was only five
Why was I thinking 'bout what happens when I die?
I know it's only human nature to survive

But I don't think the other
Kids on the playground
Thought about how

Maybe something happened in a past life
Didn't make it over twenty five
And I can feel it when I'm living this one
The fact that some day I'm gonna die
Maybe in a hundred different lifetimes
Woke up in the next one unfulfilled
By the time I found myself in this world
Death was at the head of all I built

Plays in my head
What it looks like when I finally reach the end
Will I be old and bitter
Will I play pretend?

But I don't think my friends are
Worried about how

Maybe something happened in a past life
Didn't make it over twenty five
And I can feel it when I'm living this one
The fact that some day I'm gonna die
Maybe in a hundred different lifetimes
Woke up in the next one unfulfilled
By the time I found myself in this world
Death was at the head of all I built

Maybe something happened in a past life
Didn't make it over twenty five
I can feel it when I'm living this one
The fact that some day I'm gonna die
Maybe in a hundred different lifetimes
Woke up in the next one unfulfilled
By the time I found myself in this world
Death was at the head of all I built