Putting The Past Right

i will say this:
9 out of 10 times when you trust yourself the inevitable finds you back in the places you've been begging to avoid
and when it all comes back to the identical conversations as
insignificant as yesterday's
you hope to realize that your first instinct
is always the right one:
it's always better to run from a death knell
than to fight one.
this is always true.
this is always true.
this is always true.
this is always true.
fear no pain
don't know what will spill
feel no shame
mr.i-don't-cry
ironic
that the first to argue
is always the one you're on about
ironic
that you're always the last one
to trust your own plans
and even worse
that you're unavoidably
the object
of your own guilt.
it's even worse that you're unavoidably
the object
of your own guilt.