In Denial

Sick and tired of living these lies
I'm in denial but I'm sick of my life
I try and cry but my tears stay dry
I can see the truth when I look in your eyes
Know you hate me
Point your finger you can blame me
Save me, painkiller come and kill my pain
Hate me, point your finger you can blame me
Save me, painkiller come and heal my pain

'Cause I just swallow my pride
I swallow pills to help me sleep at night
Behind the smile, I cover up the way I'm really feeling inside
I been feeling all alone right now
Some prescription on the low right now
Dropping benzos in the styrofoam, I drown
Don't even hit my phone right now
Leave me lone right now

Sick and tired of living these lies
I'm in denial but I'm sick of my life
I try and cry but my tears stay dry
I can see the truth when I look in your eyes
Know you hate me
Point your finger you can blame me
Save me, painkiller come and kill my pain
Hate me, point your finger you can blame me
Save me, painkiller come and heal my pain

'Cause I just swallow my pride
The grip reaper, everything I touch dies
Behind the smile, I cover up the way I'm really feeling inside
Praying to the sky, I never get a reply
The only time I feel alive is when I'm feeling a high
White wine, white lines
Shorty feeling my vibes
She said love is all I got like sublime
Baby, you're my sunshine