cold showers

Can I be honest for a second
I’ve never felt this way before
And for me to even admit it
Yeah, it means a little more

I kept waiting for the moment
That you’d finally let me in
But you never did

Maybe I'm the one to blame
For thinking that you felt the same

Now I'm taking cold showers
To drown out the hours
And wash off your touch on my skin
And I talk to myself just to get through the weeks
Going back to how things could’ve been

Do you even remember
When we both drunk
On the night of December
Could’ve sworn it was love

Always told me that’s you’d show me
The town you grew up in
By the ocean, pull me closer

You’d lean in for a kiss
And I told you, in a heart beat, I would find a way
To make it there someday

Let's just pretend
This isn’t the end
You Left me on read
Just to mess with my head
And left me in bed
Alone

Let's just pretend
This isn’t the end
Show up on my step
Cause you want me again
But you’re not in bed
Alone