self destruct

I've been trying to change my ways
Not lose my faith
If I don't take the step
Then I'll just stay the same

Staring at the screen again through night and day
Hard to keep my confidence in fucking place
I know you wonder where I've been
For how life's so low
A place that's stuck in time
And clocks are wrong
The Sun don't shine
And birds don't sing along
Upside down and nothing's where it belongs

Self-destruct and fix me up
Before I tear the seams or stitch them up
If I cut the thread, I'm close enough
To the edge to end where I began
Reckon I could do that
Reckon I could do that
Reckon I could do that
Oh my God

Maybe I'm clueless
Ignorant to what the truth is
Can't run or hide
Baby, it's useless
Know that I've been playing stupid
To save myself from me and no one else
Before I decay or melt
Or wither in hell

Tired of acting like it's fine
Wish I could speak my fucking mind
When I'm here, my tongue is tied
When I'm there, I'm free to fly
I need to get away from here
Ignore all my biggest fears
Feel the sounds ring through my ears

Cause I know you wonder where I've been
For how life's so low
A place that's stuck in time
And clocks are wrong
The Sun don't shine
And birds don't sing along
Upside down and nothing's where it belongs

Self-destruct and fix me up
Before I tear the seams or stitch them up
If I cut the thread, I'm close enough
To the edge to end where I began
Reckon I could do that
Reckon I could do that
Reckon I could do that
Oh my God