My negative aura

In my attempt to escape this shithole of a world
I find you'll either worship faggots or a nasty little girl
I won't socialize because all humans do is infect
In a filthy place where humans crawl around it like insects
This existence has no meaning and opinions don't make sense
I resume a medication that leaves my truest thoughts suppressed

To put trust in a slit in the sky, why do I bother?
Askin' myself why I'm not where I wanted
Why am I not where I want?