Still

It's been a long time since we last spoke
I still wonder what you're up to
After all the shit we've been through

And I spend a lot of time drinking and smoking
Hoping to subdue the thought of you in my head
So if you're out there somewhere
And if you still even care
Possibly still questionin': What is he doin?

I've been trying to find a way to numb all this pain
Since you've been away I don't want to feel anymore
And there's provably people telling you that I'm doing fine
Just taking my time
Although it appears I'm strong, it still hurts

There's been a lot of nights when I feel alone
Needed someone to talk to cause I just need to get through
And I spend a lot of money on things I don't need
Hoping that I'll feel new but can't get you out of my head

So if you're out there somewhere
And if you still even care
Possibly still questionin': What is he doin?

I've been tryna find a way to numb all this pain
Since you've been away I don't want to feel anymore
And there's probably people telling you
That I'm doing fine just taking my time
Although it appears that I'm strong

I've been tryna find a way to numb all this pain (girl, I've been trying to find a way)
Since you've been away (a way that I can numb this pain)
I don't want to feel anymore (I don't wanna feel)
And there's probably people telling you (I'm just trying to get you out of my head)
That I'm doing fine just taking my time
Although it appears that I'm strong it still hurts