​knife in my heart

​knife in my heart

I swear you'll be the death of me
Want to be who you want me to be
I've tried to see you differently
But I think that it's killing me
I'm not the best at honesty
But I freeze when you're next to me
Like in those dreams where I feel heavy
It's getting hard to breathe

You stab me and then twist the knife
As if it didn't hurt enough
Took my worst fears and then proved them right
I'll never be good еnough
You stab me and then watch me bleed
You carе too little, I do too much
And I shapeshift into all you need
But it's still never good enough

Getting over you is impossible
No, I don't think I'm capable
Of ever not being miserable
Hope I wake up invisible
And maybe in another life
You wouldn't have to prove me right
You wouldn't have to break my heart
If I didn't make love so hard

You stab me and then twist the knife
As if it didn't hurt enough
Took my worst fears and then proved them right
I'll never be good enough
You stab me and then watch me bleed
You care too little, I do too much
And I shapeshift into all you need
But it's still never good enough

I don't remember how it ended
Left my heart here, undefended
Bled out, wondering if you meant it
At least you're here while I'm dying
Seems like you're not even crying
Loving you is always terrifying

You stab me and then twist the knife
As if it didn't hurt enough
Took my worst fears and then proved them right
I'll never be good enough
You stab me and then watch me bleed
You care too little, I do too much
And I shapeshift into all you need
But it's still never good enough