Signs

I've been lost inside my mind
Not sure what I thought I'd find
Find, find

Now there's nowhere I can hide
You see straight through my lies
I've been fighting with the tide
Tossing turning every night
Time is precious I've been reckless
I'm not ready to go steady
I can't help these tendencies to push people away from me
I just, I just need to adjust, adjust
Yeah my eyes are closed but I see fine
Darkness never made me blind
Yet I can't come to my senses
Choosing sides I'm on these fences
I'm not on your team I'm always in between
Getting high like I'm a fiend
But that's not what I need I know my priorities
Number one is always me
So call me selfish I can't help it
I already feel the ache
I can't play no games
Can't kick it with no lames
I've got my own goals for me and I won't stop till I succeed
Searching for a part of me I'm not sure I've ever seen
It's like I've seen so many signs but I don't know what they mean

And I've lost my northern star
Don't know where I'm supposed to be
Oh what's my destiny
But don't doubt me cause I am golden
You don't know the weight I'm holding
I am trying to find a balance while everything is unfolding
If you wanna know me you've gotta learn one thing
If you're not going to stay then get the fuck out of my way
I've got a lot to give so please don't waste my time
I always tell them how it is
I don't make 'em read my mind
But I won't lie man it's been hard
Since you've played that victim card
Ever since I've been on guard
Desperately hiding my heart
Nothing really feels the same
I'm not sure that I can be saved
I know they want me to cave so I stand tall
Yeah I'll be brave

I've been lost inside my mind
Not sure what I thought I'd find, find, find