The Search For Control

Screaming and yelling
From three separate threats.
Outnumbered and out of control:
Your presence dictates my own survival.

A thick blanket of darkness
Blackens unfamiliar streets.
The fear inside makes me tremble
And terror aids my fast moving feet.

You stole my dignity and broke my soul.
There’s no way out, no where to go.

How can you hold my life in your hands?
I’m not as fast as your trigger
Or as shocking as your plan.
How can you hold my life in your hands?
I’m not stronger than metal that shakes in your hand.
How can you hold?
Killing this flesh won’t kill who I am.

Night by night,
You terrorize my dreams.
These thoughts inside me: Anger and rage.
I can’t let go of this, the hell you bring.

Your deeds have created this wounded soul.
There’s no where to run, no where to go.