Didn't Even Try

So after all you never kid yourself alone.
See you standing senile ever overblown.
I knew a chance of changing back would re-appear again.
But I can jump right over you say when.
Tell me driver I can't seem to understand,
Better be the leader than to hold the major's hand.
Looking forward I can see a happy tree;
A normal unaffected family.

So what d'you mean?
You didn't even try.
But it's alright with me,
I can hold myself, I know myself.
Hold on tight and you can feel the strain.
But it's alright with me, I can change.

Driving by,
Hello, remember me amour?
I'm the dandy member that you once adored.
Mirrored in the window underneath a sunny glare.
A reflection only you could bear.
Never ending nightmares you present to me.
Knowing that the problem is the problem that I see.
Certain self control preventing unashamed from doing what I might regret again.