Oxygen

Seems I've been here once to often
Shivering but not from cold
Giving in as I become cancer

But now you're screwing with my life
Sharpen the knife, don't need your precious time
Breaking balls over which of these thoughts are mine
Try to convince me that this shit don't stink
Emptyness in promises is bringing me to the brink
I felt a fibre so alive now dead and corse
And I survive just to flog some more dead whores
What am I left with here now as this thing goes?

Is this guilt or am I rushing from madness within?
The realisation makes you sick, this cancer

I know but can't see, this ok beats love
Now I'm beaten by myself

You have, a reason why
Yet to, a reason why
Give me, a reason why
A reason why, you have
A reason why, yet to
A reason why, give me

But now I stop, count, check myself, before I wreck it
Because the longer that I'm staying here, the bigger the risk I'm taking
Tell me, what am I left with here with now as this thing goes?

The times alone where I feel blessed
To wake and feel my heartbeat
Not giving in, I won't become cancer

I know but can't see, this ok beats love
Now I'm beaten by myself

A victim of mind rape I've become, become
Guilty of deciet to myself, and everyone I love
You don't understand what this is to go through, I've been through
Can't even remember my name

So black, you will never change
So black, you will never change
So black, you will never change
So black, you will never change
So black, you will never change
So black, you will never change
So black, you will never change
So black, you will never change