I Hate Myself, I Want To Party

Who knows when you will call me
And I can meet you at the bar again
I hate myself, I want to party
And pretend that I'm a star again

Well, in my mind I'm ridin' around
In the backseat drinking it subtle
And my friends know anything goes
And I'm a good girl at playing with trouble
But I hate myself, I want to party
And pretend that I'm a part of something

But instead, I watch TV, fuck my girl, check my phone, babe
PS5, change my shirt and drink alone, babe
And only I can bring me down
And keep me stuck at home
Keep me stuck at home

I thought I couldn't make a song now
But I think I'm gonna write again
I had a year to let my body
Figure out its parts again

But in my mind I'm ridin' around
In the backseat drinking it subtle
And my friends know anything goes
And I'm a good girl at playing with trouble
But I hate myself, I want to party
Pretend that I'm a part of something

But instead, I watch TV, fuck my girl, check my phone, babe
PS5, change my shirt and drink alone, babe
And only I can bring me down
And only I can bring me down
And only I can bring me down
And keep me stuck at home
And keep me stuck at home
Keep me stuck at home
And keep me stuck at home

I don't wanna live like that
I don't wanna live like that
And I know it's my track
I don't wanna live like that
I don't wanna live like that
Gonna take it right back
I don't wanna live like that
I don't wanna live like that
It was never my track
I don't wanna live like that
I don't wanna live like that
Gonna take it right back
I don't wanna live like that
I don't wanna live like that
It was never my track
I don't wanna live like that
I don't wanna live like that
Gonna take it right back

I don't wanna live like that
I don't wanna live like that
Gonna take it right back
I don't wanna live like that, uh