Love What I Hate

Is it to numb how I feel?
Is it to take me far away from what is real?
Is there a hole in my soul?
I know it's killing me but I just can't let go
Why?

Do I love what I hate
Do I give when you take
Am I nothing but one big mistake?
I can't break from this spell
Can't escape from this hell
So conflicted, addicted
Can't explain all the ways
Why do I love what I hate?

I'm so obsessed I'm ashamed
Am I the habit looking for something to blame?
You show me everything I lack
My insecurities, they keep me coming back
Why?

Do I love what I hate
Do I give when you take
Am I nothing but one big mistake?
I can't break from this spell
Can't escape from this hell
So conflicted, addicted
Can't explain all the ways
Why do I love what I hate?

We all do, we all do, we all love what we hate
We all do, we all do, we all love what we hate
We all do, we all do, we all love what we hate
I am guilty
We are guilty

Do I love what I hate
Do I give when you take
Am I nothing but one big mistake?

I can't break from spell
Can't escape from this hell
So conflicted, addicted
Can't explain all the ways (I can't explain all the ways)
Why do I love what I hate?
Why do I love what I hate?!
What I hate
What I hate
Why do I
Do I love what I hate