Anti-Sleep

I'll sleep tonight for real.
For once a chance to see
how the norm get to feel
the night that's missed by me.
I'll skip my medicine "anti",
and try to nap my senses.
I wish I could, why can't I?
At least I'll close my lenses.
Normally I sleep half a revolution
and then stay up twice as long.
This cycle brings about soft delusion
to help create a catchy "song".
But when I sleep with no aide,
I awake with much despair.
For my carelessness I have paid,
yet for once I smell the morning air.