Lonely

Pardon me for swearing
What the hell have I become
Is everything I dream of
Everything I really want

Telling myself daily
Stay the hell away from love
Every time it leaves me
Feeling like I'm not enough

And I'm giving up on me
I start to question everything that I believe

Who cares if I am lonely
I'm better on my own
Now you can never hurt me
That's all I've ever known
I tell myself I'll be okay
If I can just survive today
But this pain inside my chest won't go away

Already December
Hope is turning into doubt
Everyone around me
Seems to have it figured out

Trying to remember
What I used to care about
Slowly I became just
Another face in the crowd

And I'm giving up on me
I start to question everything that I believe

Who cares if I am lonely
I'm better on my own
Now you can never hurt me
That's all I've ever known
I tell myself I'll be okay
If I can just survive today
But this pain inside my chest won't go away
No this pain inside my chest won't go away