Final Decision: Denied

Whatever the stone golem said
Has appeared as wrong as it can be
Spoken torture in clothes of tragedy
Wouldn´t be a part of realistic laws
The questions are everywhere and liquid
The answers are hiding in deep waters
Heading out for them needs to jump down
Diving into darkest disaster

All that I´ve ever searched for
Lies in my hands now
But I can´t reach it, its so far away
My final decision´s denied …denied …denied

After years of struggeling and pain
Total chaos inside of all that was before
Learned by live and its grotesques ways
The End of all suffering seems quite so near
All the pieces lost for years and found now
Are showing the way, giving hope to complete
The final decision, the answer to all questions
Lies in my hands...

When does the ending start? When does the starting end?
What if we are just dreamers in a game?
What if we are just players in a dream?