If You Only Knew

I walked by that old café, the one we used to go to
I won't lie, you should've seen my face, I thought I saw you
My mind, was in denial but now I wanna talk
Oh, why? I guess I missing you more than I thought

Wish that I wasn't so guarded
Is it too late to be honest?
'Cause if you only knew, knew I was drownin'
Dancing around the ugly truth

I'm not blaming you
'Cause I had my demons
You just need to see them like I do
If I could go back and change one thing
Wouldn't had buried my secrets
I'd write you a letter about everything
Holding my breath while you read it

If you only knew
I might still have you (drowning)
Been through steps one and two of grief, I'm going through it
Are you still bargaining like me, then feeling stupid?
About the should'ves, the could'ves, the what ifs, the but ifs, the maybes
It's hard to accept that it could've been amazing

'Cause if you only knew
Knew I was drownin'
Dancing around the ugly truth
I'm not blaming you

'Cause I had my demons
You just need to see them like I do
If I could go back and change one thing
Wouldn't had buried my secrets

I'd write you a letter about everything
Holding my breath while you read it
If you only knew
I might still have you (drowning)

If you only knew
Knew I was drowning
Dancing around the ugly truth
I'm not blaming you

'Cause I had my demons
You just need to see them like I do
If I could go back and change one thing
Wouldn't had buried my secrets

I'd write you a letter about everything
Holding my breath while you read
If you only knew
I might still have you
If you only knew
I might still have you