Disease

Years passed by and nothing has changed
Nothing is usually like before
I cant still feel you in this place
I pray for God to give me strength
She took you and she's reaching me

Im tired of trying to face
This things without you
Tired of trying tô understand why you are gone
They say there's a light we all can see
But this darkness blinds me
And now my time is running out

Looking at this walls
Your photo is still there
All your things remain in their place
As you have always like
I can't stay one more minute in this house
Your presence no longer sencet

And I can't touch you
These memories will never go away
Remembering you are a weight
That I cant carry anymore
How to live with your loss?
Who will rebuild my dreams?

What should I do when I do not
Want them to reach out me
I never thought id say that
But I Just cant stand It anymore
The weapon is here by my side

Bringing me the hope
That these pills no longer bring
This is so unfair
This nightmare became real
No one can bring you back
With shaking hands I load the gun