I Know What I'm Not

I've been trapped
Under who I said I'd be for so long
I got lost in always trying to be what I'm not
I'm afraid
That you want all that I'm not

And you thought I'd change like I did before
But I'm not the type to change anymore
But I'm not the type to change anymore

Only I could pick the flower then damn it if it doesn't die
Uproot the thing that I forgot to appreciate alive
'Cause I can't hold it together
When your tears start to melt

Their way through cracks in your makeup
I know I'm not what you wanted
And if I am then you don't act like you know that

And I know that
So we break down
You don't deserve to have to worry about
If I'll be there when you need me

But you'll still hear me out
But you'll still hear me out
Only I could pick the flower then damn it if it doesn't die
Uproot the thing that I forgot to appreciate alive

'Cause I can't hold it together
When your tears start to melt
Their way through cracks in your makeup
I know I'm not what you wanted

And don't you dare think I don't know how bad this hurts
And don't you dare think I don't know who hurt who worse
Don't trade your guard up for me ever getting through to your head
Don't trade for problems and someone you'll wish you hated instead

You'd be better off
You'd be better off