(4am) Loops

After all this pain I've endured
I still suffer this abuse
Now I just feed your destruction
And watch at your amuse
From this cancer that eats away at me
I guess it's no surprise
I'm a corpse in disguise
With nowhere to hide
With nothing to gain, I receive all the pain
I search for my way to make things okay
Just obstacles that tie the same
I could try to survive this game
Who are you to lie?
Who are you to hide behind that high
Of your self-obsessed mind?
I'm not weak, I'm not afraid, I'm not scared
I could try to make things okay, but I'd have to go away
I'm scared to release
I'm scared of beneath
I'm scared of you and I'm scared of we
I make moments into time and you make time into misery
How can I wake up from this bad dream one without you or me?