October 17

I keep on thinking bout the things you've said n how you've hurt me
I keep on thinking bout the scars you've made n how it taught me
Not to listen to a thing you say if we're gonna last
And to forget about the things I've listened to in the past

I keep on trying to forget what you've told me
I keep on trying not to cry when you hold me
I keep on trying to stay strong when I'm lonely
But I'm dying on the inside like the old me

I'm waking up n I break down
Drugs up my nose n I go numb
I'm off the dope like all the, the time
I feel I'm slowly going dumb

Pick me up when I'm fallin'
I'll pay u back when I'm balling
Don't wanna die but death is calling
U know how I am I go all in

I know I shatter to pieces
Smokin' some weed as I'm weeping
Smoking the weed like I need it
I try to live ion feel it

Seems like I'm rather in pieces
Than tryna work on my issues
I'm second guessing my feelings
I'm not even sure if I'm living

Maybe soon