Not On My Mind

Sitting quietly on my own
Don’t know where I put my phone

Tough anxiety has consumed me
And bled deep into my soul

You had me beggin, beggin, beggin, beggin
For you back
Now, oh, I’m fast asleep
Close my eyes I’m lost inside
My own demented mind
Now you’re dead to me

Is it weird I’m dead inside
But feel so much more alive
Don’t feel nothing anymore
All the pain is set aside
Never drunk but always high
At least you’re not on my mind

I say I’m over you I swear it’s true
Some nights I just don’t follow through

You’re so bad for me you abuse me
But I keep on using you

You had me beggin, beggin, beggin, beggin
For you back
Now, oh, I’m fast asleep
Close my eyes I’m lost inside
My own demented mind now you’re dead to me

Is it weird I’m dead inside
But feel so much more alive
Don’t feel nothing anymore
All the pain is set aside
Never drunk but always high
At least you’re not on my mind