I'm more afraid of tomorrow than I was yesterday

今天比昨天更害怕明天

Dedicated to Urumqi on November 24, 2022
獻給2022年11月24日的烏魯木齊
xiàn gěi 2022 nián 11 yuè 24 rì de wū lǔ mù qí

Upon waking, there is the world
醒來後就是世界
xǐng lái hòu jiù shì shì jiè
My world
我的世界
wǒ de shì jiè
Is just within a small space
就是方寸之間
jiù shì fāng cùn zhī jiān
I forgot who once said
誰曾說的我忘了
shéi céng shuō de wǒ wàng le
That it was supposed to be a paradise
說它本該是樂園一片
shuō tā běn gāi shì lè yuán yī piàn

Maybe it really is, maybe
也許真的是也許
yě xǔ zhēn de shì yě xǔ
I accidentally heard those declarations
我偶然聽見了那些宣言
wǒ ǒu rán tīng jiàn le nà xiē xuān yán
In dreams, surely in dreams
夢裡一定在夢裡
mèng lǐ yī dìng zài mèng lǐ
I saw the flames redden the sky
我看見火光燒紅了天
wǒ kàn jiàn huǒ guāng shāo hóng le tiān

Breathing, guilty
呼吸 有罪
hū xī yǒu zuì
Happiness, guilty
快樂 有罪
kuài lè yǒu zuì
Caring, guilty
關心 有罪
guān xīn yǒu zuì
All guilty
通通 有罪
tōng tōng yǒu zuì
Not forbidden, yet not allowed
未禁止也 不可為
wèi jìn zhǐ yě bù kě wéi
I cannot decide the boundaries
由不得我 決定邊界
yóu bù dé wǒ jué dìng biān jiè

Today is more fearful of tomorrow than yesterday
今天比昨天更害怕明天
jīn tiān bǐ zuó tiān gèng hài pà míng tiān
Because by tomorrow, I will be gone
因为到了明天我就不见
yīn wèi dào le míng tiān wǒ jiù bù jiàn
Not yet in time to open this window and wish upon a shooting star
還來不及打開這扇窗对流星許願
hái lái bù jí dǎ kāi zhè shàn chuāng duì liú xīng xǔ yuàn
The tongues of fire reach farther than I can go
火舌比我能去到的地方更遠
huǒ shé bǐ wǒ néng qù dào de dì fāng gèng yuǎn
They keep spreading along with my beliefs
它不断蔓延連同我的信念
tā bù duàn màn yán lián tóng wǒ de xìn niàn
Let them gradually dye this sky red
讓它漸漸染紅這片天
ràng tā jiàn jiàn rǎn hóng zhè piàn tiān

Maybe it really is, maybe
也許真的是也許
yě xǔ zhēn de shì yě xǔ
I accidentally heard those declarations
我偶然聽見了那些宣言
wǒ ǒu rán tīng jiàn le nà xiē xuān yán
In dreams, surely in dreams
夢裡一定在夢裡
mèng lǐ yī dìng zài mèng lǐ
I saw the flames redden the sky
我看見火光燒紅了天
wǒ kàn jiàn huǒ guāng shāo hóng le tiān

Breathing, guilty
呼吸 有罪
hū xī yǒu zuì
Happiness, guilty
快樂 有罪
kuài lè yǒu zuì
Caring, guilty
關心 有罪
guān xīn yǒu zuì
All guilty
通通 有罪
tōng tōng yǒu zuì
Not forbidden, yet not allowed
未禁止也 不可為
wèi jìn zhǐ yě bù kě wéi
I cannot decide the boundaries
由不得我 決定邊界
yóu bù dé wǒ jué dìng biān jiè

Today is more fearful of tomorrow than yesterday
今天比昨天更害怕明天
jīn tiān bǐ zuó tiān gèng hài pà míng tiān
Because by tomorrow, I will be gone
因为到了明天我就不见
yīn wèi dào le míng tiān wǒ jiù bù jiàn
Not yet in time to open this window and wish upon a shooting star
還來不及打開這扇窗对流星許願
hái lái bù jí dǎ kāi zhè shàn chuāng duì liú xīng xǔ yuàn
The tongues of fire reach farther than I can go
火舌比我能去到的地方更遠
huǒ shé bǐ wǒ néng qù dào de dì fāng gèng yuǎn
They keep spreading along with my beliefs
它不断蔓延連同我的信念
tā bù duàn màn yán lián tóng wǒ de xìn niàn
Let them gradually dye this sky red
讓它漸漸染紅这這片天
ràng tā jiàn jiàn rǎn hóng zhè zhè piàn tiān

Breathing, guilty
呼吸 有罪
hū xī yǒu zuì
Happiness, guilty
快樂 有罪
kuài lè yǒu zuì
Caring, guilty
關心 有罪
guān xīn yǒu zuì
All guilty
通通 有罪
tōng tōng yǒu zuì
Not forbidden, yet not allowed
未禁止也 不可為
wèi jìn zhǐ yě bù kě wéi
I cannot decide the boundaries
由不得我 決定邊界
yóu bù dé wǒ jué dìng biān jiè

Breathing, guilty
呼吸 有罪
hū xī yǒu zuì
Happiness, guilty
快樂 有罪
kuài lè yǒu zuì
Caring, guilty
關心 有罪
guān xīn yǒu zuì
All guilty
通通 有罪
tōng tōng yǒu zuì
Not forbidden, yet not allowed
未禁止也 不可為
wèi jìn zhǐ yě bù kě wéi
I cannot decide the boundaries
由不得我 決定邊界
yóu bù dé wǒ jué dìng biān jiè