Mind Of Mine

Highs and lows are all I know
I don’t wanna be a fucked up father
Therapy is good to me, but I still can’t seem to fix my trauma
And I'm terrified that you’re just out there
Watching me when I can’t breathe, and I need someone to break the panic
Dodging me to fill the needs of somebody with a faith less damaged
And I'm terrified that I'm on my own here
So I need you to let me know

'Cause as far as I can tell
I can’t save myself
I can’t make friends with my emotions
All they do is leave me broken
So help
Am I talking to myself?
I need someone to hold me steady when my thoughts become too heavy
Someone to try to fix this mind of mine

Who the hell have I become?
Counting hours in between my doses
A jaded man with shaky hands holding onto what I can’t let go of
And I'm terrified that I'm holy ghosted
I just need you to show me that you’re real

'Cause as far as I can tell
I can’t save myself
I can’t make friends with my emotions
All they do is leave me broken
So help
Am I talking to myself?
I need someone to hold me steady
Someone to fix this mind of mine
A mind that left me on the floor and shaking
Scared to death and suffocating
God, I think I'm running out of time to get it right
And fix this mind of mine

Highs and lows are all I know
I don’t wanna be a fucked up father