Not Like I Planned

I had it written in my head
Every word we never said
Thought I knew just how it goes
Guess that's how the story folds

You were laughing, I was sure
This was something, maybe more
But the moment slipped away
Like it didn't want to stay

I kept waiting for a sign
Something clear, something mine
But you never looked my way
Not the way I thought you'd stay

It's not like I planned
Not what I dreamed
Nothing turned out
The way that it seemed
But I stayed anyway
Even when I knew
It wasn't perfect
It just felt true

You don't see it like I do
That's okay, I always knew
Still I tried to make it fit
Even when it wasn't it

We were close but never there
Something lost in empty air
I was holding onto almost
Like it mattered the most

I was hoping you would change
Maybe step outside your frame
But some things just never move
No matter what you prove

It's not like I planned
Not what I dreamed
Nothing turned out
The way that it seemed
But I stayed anyway
Even when I knew
It wasn't perfect
It just felt true

Maybe I just wanted more
Than what we were before
Maybe I just didn't see
It was never meant for me

It's not like I planned
But that's okay
Some things don't last
They just fade away
Still I kept the part
That felt like light
Even if it didn't
Turn out right

Not like I planned
But I'm alright