Undertow

So far from the life I've known, it's packed in bags
Sitting at the doorway of my future, wana travel back
Feeling flooded by the current coming in the new world that I'm set to live
It's been building up but now it's caving in
I wana be the best I can
Without all it caving in

I wana just give myself a new start
But I feel like I'm trapped again
Fighting my head again
Need to escape before I fall apart

I'm drowning
But the water surrounding me is calming
I can't speak
You never listen, so insistent on talking
And I don't know why I'm going out of my mind
I've lost control of my decisions, now I'm stuck in a bind
I'm waiting
For the tides to turn and take me by morning

So much noise and it's all surrounding me
I can't escape the fate of living inside this reality
Consequences from the lack of senses
Lead to certain kinds of tensions
Now I'm fucked up in the head from all the questions

I wana be the best I can
Without all it caving in
I wana just give myself a new start
But I feel like I'm trapped again
Fighting my head again
Need to escape before I fall apart

I'm drowning
But the water surrounding me is calming
I can't speak
You never listen, so insistent on talking
And I don't know why I'm going out of my mind
I've lost control of my decisions, now I'm stuck in a bind
I'm waiting
For the tides to turn and take me by morning

And I don't know why I'm going out of my mind
I've lost control of my decisions, now I'm stuck in a bind
I can't speak! I'm caving in!

I'm drowning
But the water surrounding me is calming
I can't speak
You never listen, so insistent on talking
And I don't know why I'm going out of my mind
I've lost control of my decisions, now I'm stuck in a bind
I'm waiting
For the tides to turn and take me by morning