indigo (feat. phem)

Glitter and glue
A perfect night's a nightmare too
I feel so cold, vivid blue
Shades of pink and shades of you

Uh, this feels like the opposite of real life
On my way to Valhalla on a steel bike
Living fantasy like J. K. Rowling
I'm J. R. R. Tolkien, these spliffs I love smokin'
My hands full of stones and gold
I'm Lord of the Rings, needles sewed, new clothes
But it's more than it seems, I seen dreams implode
Seen teens turn old before they grown
Burnt out before they fade away slow
I used to pick you up, now I don't
There's some things I would rewind, but I don't have the remote
There's some things I manifested I wish I never wrote
And all my friends? Really family, 'cause my bloodline's ghost (uh-uh)

Yeah, it's the life we chose
Highways and Hellcats with Angel Wing doors
I know I look back, the path went rogue
I know I look back, I'm halfway home (I'm halfway home)
So far away from where you are (uh-uh)
Without a 'cause, I know I'm fucked up
But I'm not sorry
And I will meet you where you are (uh-uh, yeah)
I make my own luck
Because I don't believe in karma

I stopped countin' my age
Because my face still look the same
So instead of years, I use pain
And if that's the case, then I'm five hunnid
I been in a race with my trauma, can't outrun it
No wonder why I drive like I'm being chased
Pack up and move houses instead of renovate
Put my newborn daughter to bed at eight
Then I'm back on the interstate
Chain-smoking, lookin' like I'm 'bout to hyperventilate
Got everything to celebrate on the outside
Still none of that eliminates what is inside
And since I've gotta find a way to cope
I start by reversin' some of the words I wrote
Instead of being a demon, be a beacon of hope
'Cause one day we're hangin' out
The next day you're hangin' from a rope, uh

So far away from where you are (uh-uh)
Without a 'cause, I know I'm fucked up
But I'm not sorry
And I will meet you where you are (uh-uh, yeah)
I make my own luck
Because I don't believe in karma

(La-la-la-la-la, la-la-la)
Without a 'cause, I know I'm fucked up
But I'm not sorry
(La-la-la-la-la, la-la-la)
I make my own luck
Because I don't believe in karma

Yeah, this feels like the opposite of real life
Uh, yeah
This feels like the opposite of real life
Uh, yeah, mm-mm

Glitter and glue
A perfect night's a nightmare too
I feel so cold, vivid blue
Shades of pink and shades of youyeah, it's the life we chose
Highways and Hellcats with Angel Wing doors
I know I look back, the path went rogue
I know I look back, I'm halfway home (I'm halfway home)
So far away from where you are (uh-uh)
Without a 'cause, I know I'm fucked up
But I'm not sorry
And I will meet you where you are (uh-uh, yeah)
I make my own luck
Because I don't believe in karma

I stopped countin' my age
Because my face still look the same
So instead of years, I use pain
And if that's the case, then I'm five hunnid
I been in a race with my trauma, can't outrun it
No wonder why I drive like I'm being chased
Pack up and move houses instead of renovate
Put my newborn daughter to bed at eight
Then I'm back on the interstate
Chain-smoking, lookin' like I'm 'bout to hyperventilate
Got everything to celebrate on the outside
Still none of that eliminates what is inside
And since I've gotta find a way to cope
I start by reversin' some of the words I wrote
Instead of being a demon, be a beacon of hope
'Cause one day we're hangin' out
The next day you're hangin' from a rope, uh

So far away from where you are (uh-uh)
Without a 'cause, I know I'm fucked up
But I'm not sorry
And I will meet you where you are (uh-uh, yeah)
I make my own luck
Because I don't believe in karma

(La-la-la-la-la, la-la-la)
Without a 'cause, I know I'm fucked up
But I'm not sorry
(La-la-la-la-la, la-la-la)
I make my own luck
Because I don't believe in karma

Yeah, this feels like the opposite of real life
Uh, yeah
This feels like the opposite of real life
Uh, yeah, mm-mm

Glitter and glue
A perfect night's a nightmare too
I feel so cold, vivid blue
Shades of pink and shades of youI lose all control and something takes over me (control, takes over me)
In a daze and it's so amazing (amaze)
It's not a phase (it's not), I want you to stay with me (stay with me)
By my side, I swallow my pride (my pride)
Your love is so sweet, it knocks me right off of my feet
Can't explain why your lovin' makes me weak

I try, oh, to fight it, no I cannot deny it
Your love's so sweet, knocks me off my feet

I get so weak in the knees, I can hardly speak (I lose control)
I lose all control and something takes over me (takes over me)
In a daze and it's so amazing (amaze)
It's not a phase (it's not), I want you to stay with me (stay with me)
By my side, I swallow my pride (my pride)
Your love is so sweet, it knocks me right off of my feet
Can't explain why your lovin' makes me weak
(I get so weak)
Blood starts racing through my veins
(I get so weak)
Boy, it's something I can't explain
(I get so weak)
Something 'bout the way you do
The things you do, it
(Knocks me right off my feet)
Oh, off my feet, I
(Can't explain why your lovin' makes me weak)