Subject To Change

I enjoy the company lately but
You and i are a crowd so i hope
You can understand that tonight
I wanna be with an old friend i've been missing

If i hold this in just one more day
I'm pretty sure i'm bound to break
I've waited way too long to get this off my chest
(but i know!)

I've been barking up the same damn tree
For the past two years
And maybe this time it's no one else's fault
But my own
Believe me i'm sorry if you took things too personally

I don't know where i've been for these past few months
I can't believe that i got this low
I've listened to the "upsides" b-side
Looking for the answers to what you've been asking
I've been preaching "keep your head up, kid!"
When all along i've had mine buried in the sand and
I think thats got to do with everything we never talked about

People constantly change all around me
The friends i had are completely different now
They've all been hyped up on shit and its making me sick
It's getting painful to watch them fail

I've been tracing these sidewalks
Until these side streets got the best of me
I'm a sucker for memories
(and the way things used to be)

I don't know where i've been for these past few months
I can't believe that i got this low
I've listened to the "upsides" b-side
Looking for the answers to what you've been asking
I've been preaching "keep your head up, kid!"
When all along i've had mine buried in the sand and
I think that's got to do with everything we never talked about

I think i've gotten better at letting shit go
Like that time down on market
Where we told sixx i'm sorry
Or that time that mike b. stopped calling completely
But let's be honest
Who the fuck am i kidding?