Anxiety

I don't really want
To keep on doing this
But I do it anyway
Need to get over it
But it's oppressing me to stay

I know I should be laughing
Feeling grateful and blessed
But depression is haunting me again
Anxiety won't allow me to rest

Obliged to do a daily check
The doors, the windows, my things
Everything must be safe
The answers so correct

Can't just check them once
Three times still not enough
And it's driving me mad

I know I should be laughing
Feeling grateful and blessed
But depression is haunting me again
Anxiety won't allow me to rest

I can see you're annoyed
By what I do
But I can't promise change
If it's not true
In reality is annoying me too
My tendencies I didn't choose

It's actually bothering me more
Than it does to you
My apology is the proof

I know I should be laughing
Feeling grateful and blessed
But depression is haunting me again
Anxiety won't allow me to rest