Repeatedly

I fear it's coming my way
It's hard to throw it away
Who will take the blame
I won't play this game

I don't know when this happened to me
But I have to make it stop before I leave
I prefer to not feel a thing
Than having these thoughts repeatedly

In my head there's only fear
I didn't really want to be here
My target I have to make clear
Can't waste another year

I don't know when this happened to me
But I have to make it stop before I leave
I prefer to not feel a thing
Than having these thoughts repeatedly

This feeling is exhausting
It's starting to get annoying
I'm more ashamed when it's showing
Trying to convince myself to keep going

I don't know when this happened to me
But I have to make it stop before I leave
I prefer to not feel a thing
Than having these thoughts repeatedly

Panic attacks keep coming back
I can't make it stop
I don't really suffer from that
It's all in my head but it's getting bad