They Will Bury Me As A Man

Doesn't matter, all the things that I have tried
Doesn't matter where I put my cares aside
Doesn't matter that I always had to hide the things that made me feel true

And all my life, in all my years
I've burned this body, the pain, it sears
And when it's clear, and I know I'm here
I won't meet my end with peace

And you'll tell them just how effortless I lived then
And you'll fill in all the gaps where you were missing
And you'll mourn me in your story, just like you mourned me to my face
And then you'll tell them that I miss you, and you won't even say my name!

When I die, they will bury me as a man
Ignore every single time I tried to make them fucking listen!
Oh, why can't you ever see, all the things I bleed, notice everything you're doing to me?
'Cause once you bury me

They will ignore who I was, cause I never listened!
They will scorn my petals and burn my feathers to ashes!
When they search my clothes for outfits, they'll just go buy a suit instead
Because there's no time left to meet me, they'll mourn the person in their head!

When I die they will bury me as a man
While I lie, sad and restless, longing for someone to listen
Nobody will know, things I'll never show, now my time is up, and I've gotta go
'Cause once you bury me you can forget me!

When I die they will bury me as a man
Ignore every single time I tried to make them fucking listen!!
Oh why can't you ever see, all the things I bleed, notice everything you're doing to me?
Cause once you bury me, I'll seize defeat, complicitly, I'll choose surrender!!

I'll die a failed definition
I'll die wealthy in defection
I'll die what you won't remember
I'll die since you won't accept her
I'll die with my hair straight and flat
I'll die with a heart that's turned black
I'll die with no chance for relapse
I'll die anything but a woman!!

I'll lie where my thoughts don't dare go
I'll lie in a patch of lost hope
I'll cry in a coffin below
I'll lie with a name I don't know
I'll sit beside a corpse I've never seen before
And I'll mourn how I'm dead inside your dreams
And I'll be dead to all I was!