Ever Had You

We like to fight ourselves to sleep
Say I hate you like they say I love you
There’s no need for counting sheep
I’ll be counting steps ‘til we fall through
I know that we’re on borrowed time
You singing to me getting lost downtown
Me waking up wearing a smile
Anything to push away the doubt

Like
Maybe you’re just working late
Or maybe it’s not working like it’s supposed to
You’ve been busy playing games while I’ve
Been busy playing songs about you
I love your voice when you beg me to believe you
But we both know I’m no good at that

Those eyes wander all the time
I know I’m not the only you think of
When you’re here I forget to mind
Forget the fights, forget the lies, get what I want
What I want is what we are
Midnight moments with your hand in mine
Dancing with me by your car
Broken hearts under a broken street light

So
Maybe I just think too much
Or maybe you don’t try enough or want to
Cause even after all this time I know that I don’t know you like I’m supposed to
I love your voice when you beg me to believe you
We both know I’m no good at that
I’d be out of my mind to leave you
But I’d be even crazier to think I ever had, ever had, ever had you
I already feel myself losing you
I already feel myself losing you
I already feel myself losing you

I already feel myself losing you
I already feel myself losing you
I already feel myself losing you

I already feel myself missing you
I already feel myself missing you
I’m all packed and ready to run before you say goodbye
I already bought flowers for our grave, we haven’t even died