Disaster

I read what's creased around my eyes
I look older than I did last night
I've been giving into my lesser side
Stock piling all of my pride
I've been calling home less on the weekends
And making mama cry

Hiding anger underneath my skin
I'm picking my nails down to the quick
Honestly, my memory's a blessing in disguise
If I remembered everything
I'd make a vodka cyanide

Apologies never matter
Late in the morning after
Take me away from my own head
Baby, I'm a walking disaster
Pick up all the shame you can gather
Throw it over the rafters
Take my fingers and stain them all red
Baby, I'm a walking disaster

So painfully unselfaware
Thinking I can solve my problems if I dye my hair
I shout my ailments to the end of a
Small suburban town
L get what I want
Choking on the silver in my mouth

Apologies never matter
Late in the morning after
Take me away from my own head
Baby, I'm a walking disaster
Pick up all the shame you can gather
Throw it over the rafters
Take my fingers and stain them all red
Baby, I'm a walking disaster