This Time

I've been practicing all day
Now the words I've meant to say are gone
I promised that I wouldn't cry
Told myself I have to try and hold on

The truth, I lied
I hate myself inside
And why
I played the game and paid the price

I never looked back
I never cried, never tried to wonder why
I'll be on my own
I never doubt, never shout
Or wonder how
I'll never be lonely
Until this time, this time, this time
This time I will

I've been wide awake on night
There's no sight of sleep inside my mind
The headlight shadows scares my wall
I convince myself you'll call in time

The truth, I lied
The girl in me has died
And why?
I played the game and paid the price

I never looked back
I never cried, never tried to wonder why
I'll be on my own
I never doubt, never shout
Or wonder how
I'll never be lonely
Until this time, this time, this time
This time I will

This time I will
Be yours completely
This time I'll
Make sure you don't hate me
This time I know
This time I can
This time I will

I never looked back
I never cried, never tried to wonder why
I'll be on my own
I never doubt, never shout
Or wonder how
I'll never be lonely
Until this time, this time
This time I Will

I've been practicing all day
Now the words I've meant to say are gone