Fucked Myself Up

Life flies by
When you're having the time of your life
But when you are down
Time stands still all around
The numbers on the wall
Tell me to move on
But they don't know what I've been through
As this sober fool

I'm texting numbers on purpose
And not having blood run down my knees
From drinking too much that week
And acting so naïve

Fucked myself up on purpose
'Cause too much is never enough
What is it you want from me?
This shit don't come so easily
Fucked myself up on purpose
'Cause too much is never enough
What is it you want from me?
This shit don't come so easily

Tonight, to get by
I curse at the walls and question it all
They all say it's too late to save her
And it fuels my peculiar behaviour
The doors begin to open
But I just sit here, frozen in fear
I'm not here, I'm not here

Fucked myself up on purpose
'Cause too much is never enough
What is it you want from me?
This shit don't come so easily
Fucked myself up on purpose
'Cause too much is never enough
What is it you want from me?
This shit don't come so easily

I know that I've been selfish
But I couldn't care less
I'm always going to come first
At my best at my worst
I know that this is senseless
But I will not regret this
Help me to forget this
Pass me a cigarette, bitch

Fucked myself up on purpose
'Cause too much is never enough
What is it you want from me?
This shit don't come so easily
Fucked myself up on purpose
'Cause too much is never enough
What is it you want from me?
This shit don't come so easily

I'm scared to be alone
That's why I don't come home
I'm fucked, I'm fucked, I'm fucked, I'm fucked
Fucked myself up on purpose
I'm scared to be alone
That's why I don't come home
I'm fucked, I'm fucked, I'm fucked, I'm fucked
Fucked myself up on purpose