Too Late To Be Right

I wake up reaching for a ghost in my bed
Your side's still cold but you're warm in my head

I talk to the ceiling like it answers back
Like it knows why I ran when we were on track

You used to say my silence was loud
That loving me felt like screaming in a crowd

I laughed it off said you were dramatic
Didn't know ignoring love could be so tragic

I was addicted to freedom afraid of the truth
Thought could make me mad losing the best of my youth

You asked forever I gave you time to later so much
It turned into goodbyes

I thought you wait I thought you stayed
I didn't know hearts haven't indeed
I learned the cost of pushing you away

Now every memory hits me in waves

I was wrong When I thought I was right
Lost you slowly every night
Now I'm holding apologies
You'll never hear
Talking to your name like you're still here

You beg me to fight. I chose my pride
Now it's too late to be right this time

I see your laugh on a stranger's page
Funny how pain don't fade with age
You look lighter like love finally fits
While I'm drowning in the what'd

You used to beg me to open my heart
I kept it locked like that made me smart

Didn't know walls don't just block the bad
They block the best thing I ever had

You held my hand through my darkest days

When I couldn't even stare my own way
I repay you with distance and out
Made you feel alone while you were reaching out

Oh now the nights feel longer than before
I hear your footsteps that aren't at my door

Love was speaking I turned it down Now I hear it screaming in the silence around

I was wrong when I thought I was right
Yeah you cry yourself to sleep at night

Now I'm holding apologies you'll never hear

Writing sings like they'll bring you near
You beg me to fight I chose my pride
Now it's too late to be right this time

I blame the timing blame the stress
Blamed everything but my own neglect
You ask for reassurance I gave you space
Didn't know space could erase a face

I told myself you'd always understand
Didn't realize love needs more than plans
You needed presence honesty proof

I gave you distance dresses up as truth
I remember the night you stopped trying
Your voice so calm your eyes still crying

That was the moment I should have changed
But I watched you even stay the same

If regret had a sound it'd be your goodbye
If karma had a face it looked like mine

I'd trade every victory every high
Just to go back and make it right

I know love don't wait forever
I know some scars don't heal together

But if you ever question your word
No losing you was my biggest hurt

I miss the fights I miss the pain cause at least then you knew my name
Now I'm just a chapter you survived
While I'm stuck reading the same lines

I was wrong when I thought I was right
Thought love would wait while I took my time
Now I'm holding apologies you never hear
Wishing regret could disappear

You beg me to fight I chose my pride
Now it's too late to be right this time

So here's my truth no disguise
You were the realest thing in my life

I lost you now cause love was weak
Because I didn't love the way you needed me

So happy now I won't interfere
I'll just carry the lesson year by year

I was wrong when I thought I was right
Losing you is how I learned that for life