El Presente

The Present

El Presente

Ten years have passed since I saw you lost at the bottomHan pasado diez años desde que te vi perdido en el fondo
Of a morning of ideasDe una mañara de ideas
Searching among thousands of strange livesBuscando entre miles de vidas extrañas
You told me that sometimes you were not happyMe decías que a veces no eras feliz
And that I should tell youY que te contará
If one day you could stand up and look at yourself as others looked at youSi un día podrías pararte y mirarte como los demás te miraban

You asked me not to forget youMe pediste que no me olvidara de ti
As you tried to heal us and make us laughComo intentabas curarnos y hacernos reír
You lived in thousands of bodies, in thousands of bedsVivias en miles de cuerpos, en miles de camas
That never talked about visions, didn't make coffee, didn't wake you upQue nunca hablaban de vises, no hacían café, no te despertaban
You confessed one night of partying in Madrid what you suspectedConfesaste una noche de fiesta en Madrid lo que sospechabas
That you wouldn't be able to let yourself be loved and risk ending up with nothingQue no serias capaz de dejarte querer y arriesgarte a quedarte sin nada

You asked me not to let you fallMe pediste que no te dejara caer
Not to allow you to burn in your own flamesQue no permitiera que ardieras en tú propias llamas

And I hope to do my bestY yo espero hacer lo mejor
And that what you expected to happen with us two doesn't happenY que no pase lo que tú esperabas que pasara con nosotros dos
And today I'm going to prove you wrongY hoy voy a quitarte la razón
That gave you those days when you cursed meQue te daba aquellos días en los que me maldecías
And thought there was no solutionY pensabas que no había solución

You asked if any of the fantasies you inventedPreguntaste si alguna de las fantasías que te inventabas
Had ever come trueHabía llegado alguna vez a ocurrir
I told you I didn't rememberYo te dije que no me acordaba
You promised to try not to measure every damn word againPrometiste intentar no volver a medir cada puta palabra
Not to hide behind silences and private jokesNo volver a esconderte detrás de silencios y bromas privadas
You asked me to talk about you, to write about lifeMe pediste que hablara de ti, que escribiera la vida
And the luck you were carrying back thenY la suerte que entonces llevabas

You promised that you wouldn't be scared anymore by every false movement of the branchesPrometiste que ya no te asustaría cada movimiento en falso de las ramas
Of the trees, a forest, a mountain where you had never been and wouldn't beDe los árboles, un bosque, una montaña de donde no habías estado ni estarías
And let the wind carry us, if that's what it wants, I said trying to convince youY que el viento nos arrastre, si eso quiere, te decía yo intentando convencerte
You replied that was enough for youRespondiste que con eso te bastaba
That life, if real, sometimes hurtsQue la vida si es real a veces duele

And I hope to do my bestY yo espero hacer lo mejor
And that what you expected to happen with us two doesn't happenY que no pase lo que tú esperabas que pasara con nosotros dos
And today I'm going to prove you wrongY hoy voy a quitarte la razón
That gave you those days when you cursed meQue te daba aquellos días en los que me maldecías
And thought there was no solutionY pensabas que no había solución

And I hope to do my bestY yo espero hacer lo mejor
And that what you expected to happen with us two doesn't happenY que no pase lo que tú esperabas que pasara con nosotros dos
And today I'm going to prove you wrongY hoy voy a quitarte la razón
That gave you those days when you cursed meQue te daba aquellos días en los que me maldecías
And thought there was no solutionY pensabas que no había solución