Before I'm Dead

I'm taking all mistakes I committed
And digging in my dreams
Lonely watching my collections of unregretted sins
I'm not the lonely type but friends keeps to disappear
I wonder how many will be with me when the end comes near
I wipe my eyes
I look inside
I say I will do better
But I can't get way of the fetter
I hope for someone to find out the meaning of my pain
Do what thou wilt, the will should be greater than fate
So far, beaten down by life's conformity
I am looking in you for someone who will stay when it’s time to leave

I keep comparing the lives I might have lived
People say: you're so young and bright, but I still feel like shit
Stuck in my own rituals they were supposed to improve myself
But better version for myself is not something you used to see
I waste my time
Time becomes life
Life becomes past
And I can't turn back

Don't hope for someone to find out the meaning of your pain
Do what thou wilt, the will should be greater than fate
So far, beaten down by life's conformity
I am looking in you for someone who will stay when it’s time to leave

So far away
I still believe I can find for myself
So far away