Shattered Self

Why
Why did this have to be
When will I see an end
I think I'm finally
Losing the will to fight

When fighting is all I've done
Fighting to not move on
Fighting to keep my head
Above the waves
Of depression and pain I felt
It's eating me up inside
The end of suffering
Was only a lie

A lie that I had to live
A lie that controlled my mind
My mind left me buried
Behind a wall
Of sadness I knew I'd built
I know that I won't go back
I can never face this all again

Blaming someone
Not to face my own guilt
The faults I didn't want to see
Running from the past
To keep this mask on
I should've stopped
The pain for me

I've reached the end
The final breakdown
Fragments of a shattered self

A broken dream
Now I feel nothing
But regret for everything