What If

When I was younger
I thought of caring
As a reason for some to praise me, in envy
So humble and kind

No better person
Now that I’m older I’ve seen what I’ve been
Ruthless, ungrateful, always trying to turn up tracks
Be it about me or you

Seeking out the faithful in me
With tricks of trust and gluttony
I don’t wanna wait for anyone

When I was younger I thought of deep space
Pick me up swiftly, carry me away
Drop me off willing, light years long gone
Never again seeing those who I loved

It’s not about me this time there I go lying again
Please save my soul
I don’t know what I’m doing anymore
Seeking out the faithful in me with singles and a pen
Is it possible I’m overthinking this?

It’s not what I’m not, it’s what I believe in
It’s not what I’ve got, it’s my peace of mind
Too early to see if I’m still in the past
Too hopeful to be wasted time

It’s not what I’m not, it’s what I believe in
It’s not what I’ve got, it’s my peace of mind
Too early to see if I’ll be

Seeking out the fraud in me
With compassion and honesty, I’ll wait