Tits Rule

How do i begin to explain how ive come so far with a head so blank?
without a purpose or a place to begin, how will i know when this shit finally ends?
and when its over will i say i win or will i second guess the outcome and start over again (i just cant win) i cant imagine what a toll that will take with so much on my plate
what next? and who needs to know all of everything. this constant uphill battle, all the traps life springs on me
ive come so far i know, but im moving much to slow
and when i feel im failing, things could always be a little worse
i need to get it back, i need to grab the reigns, i want complete control
i need complete control