Solitude

I cry myself to sleep
With your ashes next to me
Recalling memories throught my head
Like you are there, you've never left

Living in disbelief?
Why death exists?
Indignant, bitter and disturbed
How does God have such a nerve?

An ugly scar that never heals
A damaged road that never yields
The pain forever set inside
An agony that never dies
A constant image slowly fades
Beyond a doubt it appears again
The truth is and always will be
No matter what you still here with me

Each day passes by
Eased the pain I left behind
Reaching for an explanation
But really searching for salvation

Perhaps no more tears and despair
I move on knowing life is never fair
In my recollections I confide
Because I never got the
Chance to say goodbye