我也曾經想過這樣殺了我自己 (Once I Thought Of Leaving)

Once I Thought About Killing Myself Like This (Once I Thought Of Leaving)

我也曾經想過這樣殺了我自己 (Once I Thought Of Leaving)

Process that are too much, notebook still blank
太多的過程 空白的筆記本
tài duō de guò chéng kōng bái de bǐ jì běn
All that's left is that I can't figure out how I got here, the stains of soaked tears become translucent under the light
留下的只有猜不透怎麼走到這 透光被浸濕的淚痕
liú xià de zhǐ yǒu cāi bù tòu zěn me zǒu dào zhè tòu guāng bèi jìn shī de lèi hén
I'm laughing at the tragic life script
我在嘲笑著 悲慘人生劇本
wǒ zài cháo xiào zhe bēi cǎn rén shēng jù běn
No one sang of what happened, no one remembers, no courage to voice it out, only sacrifice
發生的沒人高歌 沒人記得 沒有壯烈 只有犧牲
fā shēng de méi rén gāo gē méi rén jì dé méi yǒu zhuàng liè zhǐ yǒu xī shēng
It's me, I'm the coward, it's me, I'm the coward
是我太懦弱 是我太懦弱
shì wǒ tài nuò ruò shì wǒ tài nuò ruò

I started to falsely put hypocritical kindness at the loaded gun
我開始將 虛偽的善良上膛虛假的槍
wǒ kāi shǐ jiāng xū wěi de shàn liáng shàng táng xū jiǎ de qiāng
In the virtual world for weaklings, shooting at weak camouflage
在虛擬的世界 射向虛弱偽裝
zài xū nǐ de shì jiè shè xiàng xū ruò wěi zhuāng
With the thought that I hid it well
以為自己藏得多好
yǐ wéi zì jǐ cáng dé duō hǎo
The discarded flowers for the beauty of the moment
視丟棄的花 為此刻的漂亮
shì diū qì de huā wéi cǐ kè de piào liàng
I prayed that someone in this world would bury them
祈禱著這世界會有人將它埋葬
qí dǎo zhe zhè shì jiè huì yǒu rén jiāng tā mái zàng
Someone like me, like me
就像我一樣 一樣
jiù xiàng wǒ yī yàng yī yàng

Once I thought of killing myself, of leaving
我也曾經想過這樣殺了我自己
wǒ yě céng jīng xiǎng guò zhè yàng shā le wǒ zì jǐ
Wishing not to accept grievances even more
渴望不用再接受更多的委屈
kě wàng bù yòng zài jiē shòu gèng duō de wěi qū
Once I thought of killing myself, of leaving
我也曾經想過這樣殺了我自己
wǒ yě céng jīng xiǎng guò zhè yàng shā le wǒ zì jǐ
All happiness and sorrow will stay where they are
所有快樂悲傷都將擱在原地
suǒ yǒu kuài lè bēi shāng dōu jiāng gē zài yuán dì

Once I thought of killing myself, of leaving
我也曾經想過這樣殺了我自己
wǒ yě céng jīng xiǎng guò zhè yàng shā le wǒ zì jǐ
Knowing that it wouldn't be easy, I practiced it repeatedly in my mind
知道這不太容易 也在腦海裡反覆練習
zhī dào zhè bù tài róng yì yě zài nǎo hǎi lǐ fǎn fù liàn xí
Once I thought of killing myself, of leaving
我也曾經想過這樣殺了我自己
wǒ yě céng jīng xiǎng guò zhè yàng shā le wǒ zì jǐ
But, I still don't have the courage
但是呢 我還是沒有勇氣
dàn shì ne wǒ hái shì méi yǒu yǒng qì

This is what you wanted, do you like it?
這是你們要的結果 喜歡嗎
zhè shì nǐ men yào de jié guǒ xǐ huān ma
This is the smile that you love it, does it look good?
這是你們愛的笑容 好看嗎
zhè shì nǐ men ài de xiào róng hǎo kàn ma
I'm living in the way you wanted me to, are you satisfied?
活成你們要的樣子 滿意嗎
huó chéng nǐ men yào de yàng zǐ mǎn yì ma
Will you regret it? Won't you regret it?
你會遺憾嗎 不會遺憾吧
nǐ huì yí hàn ma bù huì yí hàn ba

This is what you wanted, do you like it?
這是你們要的結果 喜歡嗎
zhè shì nǐ men yào de jié guǒ xǐ huān ma
This is the smile that you love it, does it look good?
這是你們愛的笑容 好看嗎
zhè shì nǐ men ài de xiào róng hǎo kàn ma
I'm living in the way you wanted me to, are you satisfied?
活成你們要的樣子 滿意嗎
huó chéng nǐ men yào de yàng zǐ mǎn yì ma
Are you crying? Cry it out loud!
你在哭泣嗎 大聲哭出來啊
nǐ zài kū qì ma dà shēng kū chū lái a

This is what you wanted, do you like it?
這是你們要的結果 喜歡嗎
zhè shì nǐ men yào de jié guǒ xǐ huān ma
This is the smile that you love it, does it look good?
這是你們愛的笑容 好看嗎
zhè shì nǐ men ài de xiào róng hǎo kàn ma
I'm living in the way you wanted me to, are you satisfied?
活成你們要的樣子 滿意嗎
huó chéng nǐ men yào de yàng zǐ mǎn yì ma
Will you regret it? Won't you regret it?
你會遺憾嗎 不會遺憾吧
nǐ huì yí hàn ma bù huì yí hàn ba

This is what you wanted, do you like it?
這是你們要的結果 喜歡嗎
zhè shì nǐ men yào de jié guǒ xǐ huān ma
This is the smile that you love it, does it look good?
這是你們愛的笑容 好看嗎
zhè shì nǐ men ài de xiào róng hǎo kàn ma
In the end, everyone became the same
最後所有的人都成了一個樣
zuì hòu suǒ yǒu de rén dōu chéng le yī gè yàng
Just like me
就像我一樣
jiù xiàng wǒ yī yàng