Why Am I Here

I wake up like I've done before
Same cracked ceiling
Same locked door
Dust in lungs that don't feel mine
Like I've been breathing borrowed time

Every step already known
Like the script was carved in stone

If this is fate
Then who designed
The voice that's running through my mind?
If I'm alive
Why don't I choose?
If this is mine
Why does it feel used?

Why am I here?
What is this for?
Why do I wake up
Just to endure?
Why do I try
If nothing feels clear?
If this is a gift
Why does it hurt to be here?

To be here
To be here

They paint the sky in hopeful tones
But I feel wired to broken codes
Moving forward
Standing still
Carrying someone else's will

They call it purpose
Call it plan
But I don't feel like I began

If this is life
Then tell me why
It feels like watching from outside

If I'm the hero
Where's the say?
Why does it feel pre-written anyway?

Was I drawn into their skin?
Was I placed where I begin?
If I'm more than flesh and bone
Why do I feel so alone?

So alone
So alone
So alone

To be here