The Paradox

I'm the one who needs no wings
But only I know how to make them spread and fly
I no longer feel I'm sick
But only I know what condition I may hide

Hey! Oh, wait!
Only gods know what a gloomy brain
Might do when you keep feeding it with pain

I'm sick of all the human race
But all I miss is having fun with people I like
Now I have no expiry date
Though I miss the time when death was just a slide

Hey! Oh, wait!
Only now I know it's true the things I used to feel when people pushed me away

I don't know my freakin' way
I'm confused and nothing makes me satisfied
How the hell is my own name?
I may live but my old heart just wanna die

Hey! Oh, wait!
All the gods know what a gloomy brain
Will do if you keep feeding it with pain
Hey! Oh, wait!
Only now I know it's true the things
I used to fear when they all scared me away