I Regret It All

I regret every night I chose the bottle over you
I regret every promise I made and never came through
I wasn't the father you needed, I know that's true
But I changed, I got sober and you still withdrew

I got on my knees, I beg for another chance
You didn't even look back, you didn't even glance
I regret it all
Every sin and every scar
But you're still my child, and you still went too far

Pay for my own, every single day
But you left your father and you chose to stay away
I was wrong
I know it on every mistake
But you walking away was your choice
My faith

I sing when it matters
I got on my knees, you never look back, you did what you please
I bled to make it right, I showed up and tried
You still won't call me, you still won't come by

Sitting in this house with the weight of my past
But you made your choice and you made it fast
I fixed what I broke, but you kept the door shut
You call yourself hurt, but you twist every cut

I was wrong
I carry it still
But you left your father
You always will

You use my past like a weapon every day
You hide behind it just to justify your way
I regret what I did, but I need you to see
Choosing the stone is on you, not me
I pay my price
I serve every single day

I know what I was, I know what I caused
I know every in-between that we lost
But I'm tired, I'm running out of days
You're holding on

I never stop loving you for all of my wrong
You stop loving me back
You move right along
I would have cried to you on broken hands and knees
But you wouldn't even open the door for me

If I regret it all, every failure I had
I regret even more, you stop coming to call
I pay for my past
I paid every day
But you're still my child, and you still chose to stay away

I was broken
I came back around
You left your father without making a sound
I regret all
You gave up on me
That's on you where you are