Unspoken

Here are some words I'll never say
Thoughts that crossed my mind
More times than I'd ever admit
You were there, but your soul wasn't with me

I felt so empty, so alone with you near
I missed when everything felt real and clear
Eyes that sparkled, tender smiles and gentle touch
Silly little games, laughing way too much

I miss the silent kind of craving
That sometimes burned, uncontained, unshaming
I wished it always stayed that way
But we got lost in the things we did and didn't say

You never heard
What I screamed in my silence
So much was spoken
And still left unspoken

You never heard
What I screamed in my silence
So much was spoken
And still left unspoken

I can't put all the blame on you
I know I could've tried much more
Held on tighter, said it louder
Even when you weren't listening anymore

I spoke so much, I shouted loud
But you had made up your mind somehow
Unshaken, safe in what you believed
While I was changing, you stayed the same with ease

You never heard
What I screamed in my silence
So much was spoken
And still left unspoken