Suffering

Waking up in suffering
Same as I was yesterday
Cold breath speaks kindly
Tells me to go back to sleep
Words that no one hears
Pass through paralyzed
In visions of darkness
I close my eyes

I lay my head down to rest
But sleep never comes

Love evades every thought
And pills nullify my restless mind
I hate myself but I couldn't hate you
Even if I tried

Hiding in my purest failure
I attempt to understand
Why hate and love seem so different
But are one and the same
Falling out of grace I know
It'll never change
Even if I tried