Addicted To Pain

You think you know me all so well
Remember thoughts that I would never tell
Is it fate that we were left alone and couldn't help ourselves?
I don't want to let you go
I'm just scared to be alone
I'm still holding on cause nothing feels this perfect when you're gone

I'm falling out of my head again
And I'm so hung up on you
I'm trying not to stare again
But I'm not sure what to do
When I'm with you

I'm coming off as second best
Your cover ups are just a fucking mess
But I'm still standing here cause
I've got no worth, and I've lost all self-respect
I think it's time to let you go
When I feel I'm more alone
I'm still holding on cause
I'm the one that's losing all control

I'm falling out of my head again
And I'm so hung up on you
I'm trying not to stare again
But I'm not sure what to do
When I'm with you

It's my fault
You're not here
I'm addicted to pain
I found hate
In myself
That I'll never escape

It's my fault
You're not here
I'm addicted to pain
I found hate
In myself
I'll never escape

I'm falling out of my head again
And I'm so hung up on you
I'm trying not to stare again
But I'm not sure what to do
When I'm with you

It's my fault
You're not here
I'm addicted to pain (when I'm with you)
I found hate
In myself
That I'll never escape

It's my fault
You're not here
I'm addicted to pain